I’ve come to a startling realization: I’ve been walking in unbelief. My constant fears and doubts are not pleasing to God. Nor are they the show of “maturity” in making sure I am indeed saved (the liar tried that one lol). I have walked in doubt of the promises of God Himself. He promised that ALL who come to Him He will not cast out, that He will never leave nor forsake. The reason I haven’t been walking in the Spirit is because I’m not walking in faith, I’m walking in my flesh (Evan to the rescue doing it his way).
I get so caught up in thinking there is some “magic something ” to being a Christian. that I must recite a prayer a certain way, do this that and the other… No, it turns out it’s just faith, simple childlike trust that indeed what our Father has promised He will provide and that He knows best. It’s not some grand “feeling,” “experience,” or “secret knowledge” only awarded to few, no, it’s simple yet profound obedient childlike faith.
I realize my error, turn back to studying God’s Word by which we know the truth (His promises to us, His children), and are taught His will and ways, and walk in the promises of such by His Spirit and power. I am ridiculous lol, boy oh boy is our Father patient!
“Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these” (Matthew 19:14).
“Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it” (Mark 10:15).
“A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out. In faithfulness he will bring forth justice;” (Isaiah 42:3).
Father God, thank You so much for Your love, mercy and incredible patience with us. I’m so sorry for how I doubt, tempt to distort and add to the simplicity of the gospel is it’s beauty, is its power, it is life, it is truth. We ask Blessed Lord for childlike faith, for the absolute trust You are beyond worthy of. We cannot and do not do anything to deserve what You’ve done. Jesus did it all! You ask us to trust You, that You know best. Amen and amen indeed You do Lord! Please forgive me for my doubts for my fears. Please quiet the enemy, bring an end to the perversion of Your saving message in the Lord Jesus Christ. Praise You Oh Great God that the amount of faith, its intensity is not what decides Your faithfulness. We are indeed bruised reeds oh Lord, smoldering wicks we are. But we are Yours Mighty God! Please cleanse us, guide us, lead us, consume us, keep us in Christ Jesus and lead us by Your Spirit we pray. Amen