The Real problem

I’ve come to a startling realization: I’ve been walking in unbelief.   My constant fears and doubts are not pleasing to God.  Nor are they the show of “maturity” in making sure I am indeed saved (the liar tried that one lol).  I have walked in doubt of the promises of God Himself.   He promised thatContinue reading “The Real problem”

Law and gospel

There exists in modern evangelicalism a missing component. The gospel is presented, the cure, but the sickness isn’t pointed out. sin. Using the law as the means of mirroring its living in all of us. We get decent reception with the good news, all “that talk about sin and God’s wrath toward sinners is soContinue reading “Law and gospel”

Hoping for chaos

There exists within many believers and myself I’ve found an odd occurrence. As Scripture speaks about the wickedness and chaos leading up until Christ comes. We, I, desire our Lord to return so bad that we find ourselves almost rejoicing at the chaos coming about. I confess that I am not shocked by events, ifContinue reading “Hoping for chaos”

Maybe it’s Maybelline

We all (those old enough that is) remember the 90’s commercial for Maybelline beauty products “maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s Maybelline.” Yes, Evan, we remember, so what? I’m glad you asked! You see, in society it is commonly argued that homosexuality isn’t a moral issue as those individuals who partake in the gayContinue reading “Maybe it’s Maybelline”

At odds

Welcome: please join me on this journey of introspection! I’m perplexed in understanding my past, my involvement in the church and my apostasy and in the end attempted suicide. What I mean is was I saved? I confessed Christ and was involved in the church and studied theology in depth. So there are three possibleContinue reading “At odds”

Reminisces of an idolater

In reminiscing about my past, trying to make sense of the blatant contractions, I’ve come to realize a hard truth. Let me start at the beginning. I was raised in a new age family. My dad did psychic readings for money. I was indifferent to religion. This changed however when I met J. Her familyContinue reading “Reminisces of an idolater”