At odds

Welcome: please join me on this journey of introspection! I’m perplexed in understanding my past, my involvement in the church and my apostasy and in the end attempted suicide. What I mean is was I saved? I confessed Christ and was involved in the church and studied theology in depth. So there are three possibleContinue reading “At odds”

Scarlet letter

A scarlet letter for all to see it’s all that people see of me I try my best to take it off yet fail and fail each time I try This face you see it isn’t me The stares the looks the awkward gaze is hard to take most days I try and act likeContinue reading “Scarlet letter”

Freedom

The truth is I failed you. I failed myself, my mom, my dad, and most of all my God. I’m cool, but I have a dark side I’m told I’m chased by something I can’t quite explain. I know not its purpose or even its name. A demon of sorts to abuse and destroy. TheContinue reading “Freedom”

Reminisces of an idolater

In reminiscing about my past, trying to make sense of the blatant contractions, I’ve come to realize a hard truth. Let me start at the beginning. I was raised in a new age family. My dad did psychic readings for money. I was indifferent to religion. This changed however when I met J. Her familyContinue reading “Reminisces of an idolater”

Tools for our journey

As believers, it’s hard to find good solid, biblical resources for personal study, growth, and encouragement. In today’s day-and-age false teaching and apostate beliefs are rampant in society…discernment is a must! I have found in my walk with the Lord a number of really excellent resources that have aided in personal study and growth whichContinue reading “Tools for our journey”

Faces

A man of many faces is how I’ve ever dwelled It’s a bare necessity of living in this hell A smile, a grin, an upward gauze is easier to see This inspite of living a life of tragedy But those with depth can see right through to what lies beneath Until I find that oneContinue reading “Faces”