NAMI Interview with me

Here is an interview I did recently for NAMI (National Alliance Of Mental Illness). If you’re struggling with depression, hopelessness, and contemplating suicide, please please hold on! Please turn to the Living Lord Jesus Christ, in Him and Him alone is life. I’m not telling you to “be religious,” no, not at all! Christ JesusContinue reading “NAMI Interview with me”

The Real problem

I’ve come to a startling realization: I’ve been walking in unbelief.   My constant fears and doubts are not pleasing to God.  Nor are they the show of “maturity” in making sure I am indeed saved (the liar tried that one lol).  I have walked in doubt of the promises of God Himself.   He promised thatContinue reading “The Real problem”

Smoldering wick

A bruised reed it is weak and frail to the touch The more I consider it’s nature it becomes all too much Something so precious as to hold in my hands The keys to a kingdom in His distant land I’m told all things I can do through Him I do trust These tests theyContinue reading “Smoldering wick”

Reliance

I’ve come to an awesome and somewhat terrifying reality. I have no family to rely on in this life. I’m a yankee far from “home,” living alone in the South with a traumatic brain injury and having survived a serious suicide attempt with a shotgun…Things are a bit hectic and tough lol. What am IContinue reading “Reliance”

Wanderer

A vagabond a wanderer of sorts What guides my steps is chance and hope I carry on with pack in hand in search of someplace to call my own A wanderer yes,wounded quite so I’ll carry on pack in hand Searching for a new start in a new land Step by step I make myContinue reading “Wanderer”

The End afoot

Wake up people! Look around you at the chaos. As you can tell the weather by signs so we can tell the day by signs occurring. The days are evil, the world is in chaos with natural disasters and plagues surfacing. The Lord Jesus Christ returns soon: repent and believe the good news please! AndContinue reading “The End afoot”

Rather offensive

The love and mercy of our, God is beautiful and truly incredible.   With that said, in addition,  coupled with our, Lord’s love is His holiness.  God is ultimately and totally holy, as such He has wrath: righteous indignation toward transgressions, and transgressors. And rightfully so. These two characteristics of the, Godhead in total, are playedContinue reading “Rather offensive”

The Big 36

It’s my birthday today, not a particularly remarkable event given the number of human beings on our planet. But, wait, perhaps remarkable because I’m alive…in more ways than one! I started off the year with bang (too soon for suicide jokes?) My life as I knew it ended that day, I survived physically but cameContinue reading “The Big 36”

Prosperity “gospel”

“Hey did you hear Joel Osteen, he has such an uplifting message?!” No I did not, no. Yeah, yeah, God wants me to be “happy, wealthy, healthy, and prosperous.” He and other ministers of the flesh proclaim such. “Wait, Evan, aren’t you being rather critical, rather unkind?” No, and here’s why. Our God is anContinue reading “Prosperity “gospel””

Wages

I obsessed over death for years. I remember as a child rigging up a dead-fall out of 100 lbs of workout weights and a tripwire to fall on my head and kill me. I had been thinking of suicide and an infatuation with death since I can remember. I thought that life was hell andContinue reading “Wages”