Hoping for chaos

There exists within many believers and myself I’ve found an odd occurrence. As Scripture speaks about the wickedness and chaos leading up until Christ comes. We, I, desire our Lord to return so bad that we find ourselves almost rejoicing at the chaos coming about. I confess that I am not shocked by events, ifContinue reading “Hoping for chaos”

Maybe it’s Maybelline

We all (those old enough that is) remember the 90’s commercial for Maybelline beauty products “maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s Maybelline.” Yes, Evan, we remember, so what? I’m glad you asked! You see, in society it is commonly argued that homosexuality isn’t a moral issue as those individuals who partake in the gayContinue reading “Maybe it’s Maybelline”

Ego need not apply

Ah, the great sin of inflated ego, of pride and smugness. Our society is ripe with the fruit of high self confidence and pride. One need only look to our celebrities to see what we value in society. “I’m the best at…” fill in the blank. Whether it be for looks, for what we own,Continue reading “Ego need not apply”

At odds

Welcome: please join me on this journey of introspection! I’m perplexed in understanding my past, my involvement in the church and my apostasy and in the end attempted suicide. What I mean is was I saved? I confessed Christ and was involved in the church and studied theology in depth. So there are three possibleContinue reading “At odds”

Infusion negative

The topic of Soteriology, theology dealing with salvation is the key foundation of many theological principles. The great questions of “how are we saved, who can be saved, and what salvation takes” are of the upmost importance! Our answer to these questions results in salvation correctly taught and received, or damnation and apostacism. The importanceContinue reading “Infusion negative”

Overcoming evil with good

Roman’s 12:2 reads, “do not be overcome with evil, but overcome evil with good.” This exhortation is powerful in its implications and application: to look for, and respond in love and mercy no matter the situation or “ugliness” and injustice of a person/situation. Our God is the God of redemption: of turning what is ugly,Continue reading “Overcoming evil with good”

Scarlet letter

A scarlet letter for all to see it’s all that people see of me I try my best to take it off yet fail and fail each time I try This face you see it isn’t me The stares the looks the awkward gaze is hard to take most days I try and act likeContinue reading “Scarlet letter”

Vanity of vanities

In our society it seems there is an epidemic of mental illness. Hopelessness and despair runs rampant….why is it so, you may ask…I know I surely do. Perhaps is not an epidemic of mental illness. perhaps it’s a legitimate reaction to the futility, hardship and perplexing nature of our lives as humans? Look at itContinue reading “Vanity of vanities”

Freedom

The truth is I failed you. I failed myself, my mom, my dad, and most of all my God. I’m cool, but I have a dark side I’m told I’m chased by something I can’t quite explain. I know not its purpose or even its name. A demon of sorts to abuse and destroy. TheContinue reading “Freedom”

Reminisces of an idolater

In reminiscing about my past, trying to make sense of the blatant contractions, I’ve come to realize a hard truth. Let me start at the beginning. I was raised in a new age family. My dad did psychic readings for money. I was indifferent to religion. This changed however when I met J. Her familyContinue reading “Reminisces of an idolater”