Still with us

I just wanted to say that I have concerns with how we teach, live, etc. I have concerns with how I live, teach, etc. At the end of the day we are frail, easily led astray as sheep, and prone to wander. And yes, we must remain in the Word, prayer, and fellowship indeed: as we are exhorted to for our ultimate good by The Loving God.

However, our Great Shepherd is not uninformed of this fact, and loves us nonetheless! I do not wish to come across as “cold,” and “dark” or woeful and pessimistic. I seek to exhort, and encourage my fellow brothers and sisters, to point to the Lord Jesus Christ. In the beginning and end it’s all Him.

Father God thank You so much for Your love, mercy, grace and care. We love You and pray You guide, lead, and direct in Jesus’ holy name. amen

Seeking truth

C.S. Lewis is quoted,

“If you look for truth, you may find comfort in the end; if you look for comfort you will not get either comfort or truth only soft soap and wishful thinking to begin, and in the end, despair.”

It makes me think or redemption and rebirth in Christ Jesus. To realize our desperate need of a Savior and willingness to humble ourselves in confession, repentance, and surrendering and trusting in the Lord Jesus Christ we must see our absolute filth to begin with, it’s a brutal image looking back at us in the mirror of the perfect law. But wow, praise God for the healing balm of the true Gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ absolutely granting life, hope, and purpose in abundance!

At first you must die indeed but wow is the rebirth fantastic! (Seeking truth no matter its outcome, resulting in true joy in this case. Happiness is fun and all but rather shortsighted and tempts with immediate gratification over waiting for joy which is found “deeper” I’ve found).

We have a big attraction in our society today with immediate gratification and happiness. It’s all about feeling good and having that momentary high.

This has even crept into the Church sadly. We do not preach the utter depravity of humanity, our guilty standing before a holy and *gasp dare I say wrathful God. Nor “repent and believe ” as Christ Himself did, the Apostles, all believers, etc. Nah, try “buddy-Jesus,” He’ll make you feel happy, guilt free and religious to boot. Lord. Master, God, king…that makes me uncomfortable, I’ll stick with buddy.

I for one am terrified with what we have done with our Lord’s precious sacrifice and how we’ve neutered His message. Pick up your cross, sin, wrath, judgment, denial, servanthood, sacrifice, submission?! Nonsense!

Those things dont make me “happy” at all! So be it I suppose there will be much weeping and gnashing of teeth we’re told, and sadly, many hearing “away from me workers of iniquity I never knew you” (Matthew 7:23).

Please please please Church, wake up: stop softening the call of the gospel to make it more “appealing.” Our Lord will have none of it, and truthfully neither should we!

And no, I’m not denying the incredible joy, peace, hope and purpose that is ours in the Lord Jesus Christ in any way. Life is found in abundance in Christ Jesus: truly amazing, fantastic, incredible! When we preach a different message than our Lord did,

We’re preaching another Jesus entirely which is none at all: instead a figment of modern-imagination, or even worse the deceiver himself

If your friend gave you specific directions to get to his house and you decided to throw out the bits you didn’t like, how would that work out? Speed bumps, stop signs, radar, checkpoints, no thanks! Ahhhhhh, we want all to get to be with our lord and us as well, let us preach as we ought!

I’m writing this because it’s on my heart big time. I went and returned gospel tracts today and they looked at me like I was speaking nonsense: “no repentance, no mention of sin” i explained, not the full message. Who cares?! They say Jesus dead, buried and resurrected, right? And no I’m not being all “theological,” nor a “legalist.” Our lord Himself preached “repent and believe” (e.g. Mark 1:15). Read the Bible, repentance is mentioned a lot! Especially in Revelation…the reason why Christian’s shy away from it (sin is no joke to our Absolutely Holy God).

The Lord Jesus came to free us from sin, death, and the devil and reconcile us unto our God in utter holiness as He Himself is indeed holy. I will not hand out false comfort (soft-soap: warm, sparkly, smell good, feel good lies) to someone with a tract which offers a cure without mentioning the the disease and “proper dosing” per the cure that the Great Physician Himself directed!

‘I tell you, no! But unless you repent, you too will all perish” (Luke 13:3).

“I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness” (John 12:46).

“But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light” (1Peter 2:9).

Father God we praise and thank You for rebirth in Christ Jesus our lord. Yes Lord, the cost was tremendous to earn on our behalf and halfhearted nonsense is not what You’re after from us. Please forgive us for neutering Your message, please have mercy Lord Jesus. May the fulness of the message be preached fearlessly trusting in you to make the seed grow, not our “trimming of the message.” And as always, thank You for being faithful even when we are faithless, and for working Your purpose in spite of our weakness. we love, appreciate You Lord. We need You everyday, every second, always and forevermore. glory, honor, authority and praise is Yours and Yours alone, You expect and we should expect nothing less. In Jesus’ Precious name. Amen.

The Real problem

I’ve come to a startling realization: I’ve been walking in unbelief.   My constant fears and doubts are not pleasing to God.  Nor are they the show of “maturity” in making sure I am indeed saved (the liar tried that one lol).  I have walked in doubt of the promises of God Himself.   He promised that ALL who come to Him He will not cast out, that He will never leave nor forsake.   The reason I haven’t been walking in the Spirit is because I’m not walking in faith,  I’m walking in my flesh (Evan to the rescue doing it his way). 

I get so caught up in thinking there is some “magic something ” to being a Christian. that I must recite a prayer a certain way, do this that and the other… No, it turns out it’s just faith, simple childlike trust that indeed what our Father has promised He will provide and that He knows best.  It’s not some grand “feeling,” “experience,” or “secret knowledge” only awarded to few, no, it’s simple yet profound obedient childlike faith.  

I realize my error,  turn back to studying God’s Word by which we know the truth (His promises to us, His children), and are taught His will and ways, and walk in the promises of such by His Spirit and power.  I am ridiculous lol, boy oh boy is our Father patient! 

“Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these” (Matthew 19:14).

“Truly I tell you, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it” (Mark 10:15).

“A bruised reed he will not break, and a smoldering wick he will not snuff out. In faithfulness he will bring forth justice;” (Isaiah 42:3).

Father God, thank You so much for Your love, mercy and incredible patience with us. I’m so sorry for how I doubt, tempt to distort and add to the simplicity of the gospel is it’s beauty, is its power, it is life, it is truth. We ask Blessed Lord for childlike faith, for the absolute trust You are beyond worthy of. We cannot and do not do anything to deserve what You’ve done. Jesus did it all! You ask us to trust You, that You know best. Amen and amen indeed You do Lord! Please forgive me for my doubts for my fears. Please quiet the enemy, bring an end to the perversion of Your saving message in the Lord Jesus Christ. Praise You Oh Great God that the amount of faith, its intensity is not what decides Your faithfulness. We are indeed bruised reeds oh Lord, smoldering wicks we are. But we are Yours Mighty God! Please cleanse us, guide us, lead us, consume us, keep us in Christ Jesus and lead us by Your Spirit we pray. Amen

Must be said

Please please note I am not saying these things to present myself as “holier-than-though.” I share my experience, the miraculous ways I’ve been spared literal death, freed from sin, forgiven, etc., to point to Christ and glorify my Savior. I am nothing, I do not want praise, I do not want titles, I do not want anyone to look at Evan and say “wow.” Look to the Lord Jesus Christ please: He is the reason I’m alive, He is the reason I’m changed, He is the reason I have a future and a legit hope.

As the apostle Paul states, “Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners–of whom I am the worst” (1 Timothy 1:15). There is always danger of pride creeping into anything, we are after all in the flesh until we receive our glorified bodies when the Lord returns or calls us home. I am not “feeling” for praise, “know what I love about me, how humble I am” lol. The flesh is nothing, we in and of ourselves are nothing. Christ is all: “if you’re not talking about Jesus you’re off the subject!”

Do I understand why this has happened to me, why I’ve experienced such a dramatic change, miraculous healing, freedom from bondage, etc.? Am I special? I think not. I believe as believers our Father promises us all good things in Christ for our good and His glory. I fear we are missing so much of what our Lord has done and is willing to do for us. I believe we doubt His provision and promises and rely on our own power all too often. I know I do. But praise God for His love and mercy in Christ Jesus our Lord! May we rest in His care, glory in His mercy, trust absolutely in His promises, and grow in our love and understanding

What a long strange trip it’s been

I am born-again (John 3:3),  not by works, not by decisions,  not by religion, not by ritual, not by good works, or anything else of myself,  I have been born anew in Christ Jesus: forever His by unmerited grace and mercy in simple faith, trust in His promises.   Wow, our Lord is truly incredible!  I’ve gone from accepting Christ as Lord and Savior more times than I can count,  to trusting in His promises and care and coming before Him in repentance, in faith any time I think I’ve dishonored Him.
I have some questions.  I’m a new believer, very young in the faith.  I little background will help to explain.  
 I attended a Lutheran church in my 20’s, become baptized and believed from then on I was a Christian,  saved by grace through faith in Christ.   My life was an absolute mess: entrenched in sexual immorality, drunkenness,  greed and pride.  Nonetheless I believed I was saved because I was baptized. I did not repent or consider Jesus as Lord in any way.
I was involved in a serious motorcycle accident in 2014 which nearly cost me my life.  I took for granted God’s mercy shown, and continued to live an absolutely horrific life.  I even called myself an agnostic,  and an atheist,  and partook in pagan rituals.   I continued in chaos and self-destruction for years and years.
This continued on for a long time, leading eventually to a suicide attempt involving a twelvegauge shotgun.  I pulled up to a church parking lot, fell to my knees in front of a cross outside and prayed, “I’m sorry,  I can’t take this anymore, please forgive me and take me home.” I made the sign of the cross on my chest, loaded the shotgun with buckshot, put it to the roof of my mouth (to hit my brain stem) and pulled the trigger. I woke up to the sound of the lawn maintenance crew at the church mowing the lawn.  I was shot point blank in the head with buckshot.   I am messed up from it yes, but I’m alive!  I live because only our Lord “has the powers of death and hades” (Revelation 1:18).  The Only True God spared my life by His power,  grace and for His purpose.  
With a lot of time in the hospital I began to pray a lot and read the Bible.  I saw how utterly miserable I was/am and absolutely powerless to offer anything to God for mercy.  I realized in studying that indeed yes, salvation is by nothing but grace  through faith in Jesus Christ alone.  We are called to repent and trust Jesus: and i did. I Underwent an incredible change.  I miraculously was freed from my addiction to sex, alcohol,  cigarettes,  etc.  I cannot take credit for these changes. At first I would try and make “deals” with God, ” after I get my new bank card I’ll quit smoking.”  I remember praying “Lord, You tell us to repent and believe God good news, I can’t stop, if smoking dishonors You please take it away.”  The next day the addiction left.  All this to show me the Lord saying,  “”Evan, I don’t need you to do anything,  you do not understand.”  I’ve been tempted,  and given in a few times sadly, but am no longer a slave to it.
 The evil one is merciless in his attacks.  I’m under almost constant weight of guilt, fear, and doubt.  At first it was doubting God’s utter goodness and absolute sovereignty.   When I rejected those lies based upon Scripture,  the doubts switched to the “trustworthiness ” of my conversion, of my faith.  I’ve come to the conclusion that most definitely,  yes, I deserve absolute wrath, nothing but, yet in the Lord Jesus Christ alone I have  been freed from the Powers of sin, death,  the devil and hell, spared the just wrath of the Father because of Christ’s substatutionary-atonement, and am indeed a child of the Only Living God.

Friends, come to the Savior please! He loves you like no other, wants nothing but what is best for you and offers only life. He and He alone is love, peace, purpose and existence. I know the world promises all that and more, but know, it lies. There is grace, there is hope, there is forgiveness in no other than the Lord Jesus Christ! His yoke is so easy, His burden so lite: come to Him who created You, who bled for you, come home! Repent and trust the Lord: He makes all things new! And yes, I know “I don’t know how wicked you’ve been, how hard it is.” He is able to do all things my friend! Take it from me, a suicide survivor covered with scars, bearing the Mark’s of redemption by His grace: COME! No one is beyond redemption, NO ONE!

“What a long strange trip it’s been, indeed”! And it brought me to the foot of the cross, to the Only One who Grant’s life, and raises the dead like me.

Glorious Father, all glory, honor and praise to You Oh God! Thank You so so much for Your mercy in the Blessed Savior the Lord Jesus Christ. In Him and Him alone our hope is found! We are indeed unworthy, we need not kid ourselves. You know us as we are, and embrace us in Christ as Your blessed sons and daughters covered with his righteousness not our own. We ask Father that we may walk by childlike faith in the Lord Jesus, trusting not in ourselves in any way. Our souls leak Oh Lord, plug the holes, keep our eyes on You. When the enemy comes to accuse let us run with boldness to Your thrown of grace. For indeed we are not our own, we have been bought with an incredible price. Please work mightily to open eyes, to bring to life from the dead as You have with me. Guide us, lead us, protect us and change us. We praise and worship, trust and adore, in Christ’s holy name. Amen.

Come to me, all you who are “weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28).

“All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away” (John 6:37).

“Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me” (John 14:6).

“Now this is eternal life: that they know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent” (John 17:3).

“God cannot give us happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there” (C.S. Lewis).


What am I what am I my heart does cry out

I’ve lost my footing I’m filled with much doubt

Am I the face in the mirror or the man from the past

If past is my being surely I’ll die

If the mirrors image is my being surely you’ll hide

No I say no, none of these things

My being is in Him, for Him my heart sings

When you ask me to whom I belong

I’ll proclaim my Savior Jesus all the day long!

Smoldering wick

A bruised reed it is weak and frail to the touch

The more I consider it’s nature it becomes all too much

Something so precious as to hold in my hands

The keys to a kingdom in His distant land

I’m told all things I can do through Him I do trust

These tests they are starting to seem just too much

Perhaps I’ve been looking the wrong way all this time

It is not the faith itself, but its Author that’s Devine

for if I focus on me I miss the whole point

My faith is weak and failing at every point

Oh Lord You have promised a spectacular truth

Our faith isn’t the issue, the Victory IS YOU

The next time the deceiver comes to destroy

To plunder and kill, to injure, to You I implore

Please take off my focus from my pitiful smoldering wick

My Lord and my Savior come rescue me quick

For even a faith as small as a seed

Is enough to enter Your kingdom so You’ve promised me

Please forgive me obsession with Reed’s and my wick, the truth is my Savior You know the trick

The keys to the kingdom arent in my frail clasp

They’re kept with our faith in Your Kingdom in our Lord and Savior’s mighty pierced grasp

The face of sins reward

I’ve always been pretty stubborn. Perhaps you can associate. I always had to find out for myself, take “the hard road.” If someone suggests something i listen and go about my way. If I’m ordered to do something i immediately rebel. As a result of this hard-heartedness you see, is my rather chaotic life. I’m thankful to be alive most definitely and take it day by day and rest in my Savior Jesus Christ. I’m in financial ruin, without a vehicle, and my face is missing having blown it off with a shotgun. I do not write for pity, praise or anything else. I’m writing to communicate a shocking truth: sin is indeed as evil as our Holy God declares.

Reading the Scriptures we see how the world we live in has become so messed up, learn of our rebellion, the coming judgment, and the amazing redemption offered in Christ Jesus.

I had always thought, “yeah, sin is bad.” I am living proof to attest to its cost, deceit and the outcome of following its “master.” I was religious, didn’t know Christ, but certainly religion. I was engulfed in sin: lust, greed, pride, hate, idolatry and you name it.

The enemy promises, as he did to Eve, “try it, it’s fun, it can’t hurt.” In shiny wrapper, bright lights, the promise of pleasure, purpose, peace, acceptance and wisdom, it entices. We are prone to desire rebellion to our fallen natures to begin with, so the lure is quite strong. Like a dog being fed poisoned candy from a strangers hand we run up panting, gulping it down.

I was promised freedom, I was promised pleasure, I was promised “fun.” I sit here with a missing face, destitute and from a purely human perspective, hopeless. This is the result of sin, this is the result of the rebellion and “freedom” we so favor! This my friends is the result of following the ways of the enemy, the serpent who deceives and destroys. I do not blame satan, no, “the devil didn’t make me do it.” I knew better, I desired, I ate, I suffered, I died.

I am sitting here writing today by our God’s amazing grace, power, and purpose. I live by the grace of The Risen Lord Jesus Christ. I am filled with hope at enormous sins forgiven, iniquity atoned, righteousness imputed, and a future hope free of sin, its effects and devastating outcomes.

We are all tempted to sin, we are fallen in a fallen world. The wages of sin indeed are death. Our Lord knows best, let us not be blinded by its twinkling lights and deceptive scent. It is death my brothers and sisters, it is death!

“There is a way that appears to be right, but in the end it leads to death” (Proberbs 14:12).

“because the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens everyone he accepts as his son” (Hebrews 12:6).

“You will not certainly die,” the serpent said to the woman” (Genesis 3:4).

“So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!” (Roman’s 7:21-25).

“They answered and said to Him, “Abraham is our father.” Jesus *said to them, “If you are Abraham’s children, do the deeds of Abraham. But as it is, you are seeking to kill Me, a man who has told you the truth, which I heard from God; this Abraham did not do. 41 You are doing the deeds of your father.” They said to Him, “We were not born of fornication; we have one Father: God.” 42 Jesus said to them, “If God were your Father, you would love Me, for I proceeded forth and have come from God, for I have not even come on My own initiative, but He sent Me. 43 Why do you not understand what I am saying? It is because you cannot hear My word. 44 You are of your father the devil, and you want to do the desires of your father. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth because there is no truth in him. Whenever he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own nature, for he is a liar and the father of [d]lies. 45 But because I speak the truth, you do not believe Me. 46 Which one of you convicts Me of sin? If I speak truth, why do you not believe Me? 47 He who is of God hears the words of God; for this reason you do not hear them, because you are not of God.”(John 8:39-47).

Father God, thank You so much for Your mercy and grace in all You do. Thank You so much for saving us from the Powers of sin, death, and the devil by Christ’s sufferings, death, and victorious resurrection! Please help us Father to see sin as we ought, its horror, shame, and disgrace. May we hate sin as we ought, as indeed You Our Redeemer does. May we walk in the newness of life bought us in Christ Jesus, not by the letter of the law, but by the Spirit who brings freedom and peace. Please guide, lead, protect, and direct: all glory, in the Lord, Jesus Christ’s blessed name. Amen

Pray for revival

There is being experienced within the Church a strong desire for revival. This is fantastic and God honoring I believe. I hear of prayers for peace, for the Spirit’s guidance and filling. All good things.

I am moved to say also, we should pray in repentance within our churches. We ask for revival, for new things yet we neglect what has already been given to us. We have seriously neglected God’s Holy Word, turning instead to false teachers and anything which brings emotional high. We have neglected the ONLY norm for salvation, faith and practice. The very Word of God.

we have weakened to footing of the faith by downgrading it to song and emotion only. Emotionsand worship are indeed beautiful blessings of Our Loving God. However, we mustn’t deny authority in dictating our belief and practice. Stepping back from Scriptural dependence have opened ourselves to falsehood of many kinds. In many ways, we are in bed with the world, not salt, not light. We are not to be of the world, we are in it but not of it. This is not our home! We are often greedy, arrogant, lovers of the flesh, and lazy.

Praise be to God for mercy and forgiveness in the Blessed Lord Jesus Christ! We are indeed prone to err, but our Lord is patient, loving and faithful. Let us keep our eyes oh Him, casting all our fears, failures, concerns and weakness upon the Only Savior

The evil one is so cunning and deceptive! “I have a better way,” “yes, I know the Bible says that, but…” we have turned from truth and its pursuit to fleeting feelings and emotional highs. We must repent: return with focus and dependence upon on God to his Word to His power and purpose.

We must return to the true, to the trustworthy, to the truthful. To the Word, to worship, to fellowship, to prayer. “They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer” (Acts 2:42).

“The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons” (1 Timothy 4:1).

Gracious Father God, we come before You in brokenness and weakness. We have abandoned the gifts given to us for good and looked elsewhere for blessing. We stand with frown and outstretched hand asking for blessing with what You have given us sits as trash upon the ground. We are so sorry for our pride, our ungrateful hearts and how easily we are deceived. We stand in the Righteousness of Christ, not our own, praise God! May we never forget our righteousness IS Christ, not our own. You Lord Jezus are all in all! We pray indeed Gracious God for revival. We pray the gospel explodes in power and truth throughout this broken world. We pray Your Church, Your people who You bought by Your very blood return to Your Word for what we believe, confess, and Practice. Please grant us passion to crave Your Word as infants in Christ as we are. Please give us wisdom to handle Your Word of truth as we ought. We can do nothing without You Our God! Please please refocus us, humble us, forgive and renew. Yes Mighty God, bring revival. Please raise up Your true Church, in the hope of You alone Lord Jesus. All for Your glory, honor, praise and love oh, Christ Jesus. Amen


For those who do not quake with chaos under foot

Who choose instead to carry on just as we always do

To you I raise my glass to honor one the same

I may not even know you by your given name

But nonetheless we’re fighters, always Marching on

Headed into battle heralded by our victory song

Its hard to find such valor, few and far between

But life has found us worthy to march another day

So hurry into battle and take me by the hand

we live as one in struggle our goals just the same

2020 Evan Powers