Truly Amazing!

Praise God!  All glory, honor, praise and worship!  Please pray for an encounter I’m in the midst of.  I went out to witness and met, Dwight, a homeless man who was planning on killing himself with drugs (a mixture of a ton of methadone and other drugs).  He’s safe, dumped out the chemicals and hasContinue reading “Truly Amazing!”

The face of sins reward

I’ve always been pretty stubborn. Perhaps you can associate. I always had to find out for myself, take “the hard road.” If someone suggests something i listen and go about my way. If I’m ordered to do something i immediately rebel. As a result of this hard-heartedness you see, is my rather chaotic life. I’mContinue reading “The face of sins reward”

Under pressure

We’re all under pressure, right? Most defiently: pressure from the inside, pressure from the outside, pressure all around. Family, friends, work, finances, expectations, decisions, etc., etc. A lot going on each and everyday! Mr. Bowie, and Mercury had it right! 😉 Imagine with me something: say you won an exorbitant amount of money, say 10Continue reading “Under pressure”

Reality check

It’s common to hear that we have souls. Or spirit within us. The thought is we’re physical beings having an immaterial soul. There’s a problem with this however, it’s a misunderstanding, a confusion of priority. We are eternal spirits inhabiting a material body. Why does that matter, Evan, aren’t you “cutting hairs” here? No IContinue reading “Reality check”

The Big 36

It’s my birthday today, not a particularly remarkable event given the number of human beings on our planet. But, wait, perhaps remarkable because I’m alive…in more ways than one! I started off the year with bang (too soon for suicide jokes?) My life as I knew it ended that day, I survived physically but cameContinue reading “The Big 36”

Sorrow

My world my world what have you done You kill your own daughters and your own sons In the name of freedom you kill your own My image born is now quite unknown You grieve my heart more than I can tell You’ve turned my garden into a living hell You pollute and destroy alwaysContinue reading “Sorrow”

Traffic lights don’t exist

“I don’t believe in God because there is evil in the world.” Yeah, and I don’t believe in traffic lights because accidents still occur. Both are effected by free will. We could all have cars that would come to a total stop is a light changed, however we value personal free will and autonomy tooContinue reading “Traffic lights don’t exist”

Loosing the mask

I’m comtemplating loosing the mask. Letting my “freak-flag” fly lol. For those not knowing what I’m referring to, let me explain. My shotgun suicide attempt left my face pretty messed up. I use the mask to reduce stares, to cover it up so it’s not so noticeable. Is this right, I wonder? Well I doContinue reading “Loosing the mask”

Wages

I obsessed over death for years. I remember as a child rigging up a dead-fall out of 100 lbs of workout weights and a tripwire to fall on my head and kill me. I had been thinking of suicide and an infatuation with death since I can remember. I thought that life was hell andContinue reading “Wages”

Vanity of vanities

In our society it seems there is an epidemic of mental illness. Hopelessness and despair runs rampant….why is it so, you may ask…I know I surely do. Perhaps is not an epidemic of mental illness. perhaps it’s a legitimate reaction to the futility, hardship and perplexing nature of our lives as humans? Look at itContinue reading “Vanity of vanities”