A vagabond a wanderer of sorts What guides my steps is chance and hope I carry on with pack in hand in search of someplace to call my own A wanderer yes,wounded quite so I’ll carry on pack in hand Searching for a new start in a new land Step by step I make myContinue reading “Wanderer”

At odds

Welcome: please join me on this journey of introspection! I’m perplexed in understanding my past, my involvement in the church and my apostasy and in the end attempted suicide. What I mean is was I saved? I confessed Christ and was involved in the church and studied theology in depth. So there are three possibleContinue reading “At odds”

Shattered mirror

A shattered mirror on the ground pieces scattered all around I pick them up and cut my hand Is this all part of, God’s grand plan? I try again and cuts sink deep I try my best to make it up This mess I’ve made is too much to mend The cuts sink deep intoContinue reading “Shattered mirror”

Procrastination is the enemy

“Eh, I’ll do it tomorrow, it can wait.” It is all too tempting, easy and common to procrastinate. When we have a task to do, especially if it’s not something we’re fond of, we will make every excuse not to do it. I don’t know about you, but I am certainly guilty of such! TheContinue reading “Procrastination is the enemy”

Scarlet letter

A scarlet letter for all to see it’s all that people see of me I try my best to take it off yet fail and fail each time I try This face you see it isn’t me The stares the looks the awkward gaze is hard to take most days I try and act likeContinue reading “Scarlet letter”

Vanity of vanities

In our society it seems there is an epidemic of mental illness. Hopelessness and despair runs rampant….why is it so, you may ask…I know I surely do. Perhaps is not an epidemic of mental illness. perhaps it’s a legitimate reaction to the futility, hardship and perplexing nature of our lives as humans? Look at itContinue reading “Vanity of vanities”

Reminisces of an idolater

In reminiscing about my past, trying to make sense of the blatant contractions, I’ve come to realize a hard truth. Let me start at the beginning. I was raised in a new age family. My dad did psychic readings for money. I was indifferent to religion. This changed however when I met J. Her familyContinue reading “Reminisces of an idolater”

End times obcession

So, having strayed from the faith for some time and being brought back by, God’s grace I’ve noticed something. Our society, especially many believers are obsessed with eschatology. Movies, books and everyday events are focused on the “end times.” Now I know we await Christ’s second coming: expectantly so, and should be mindful of theContinue reading “End times obcession”

From death to life

So, where to begin?! I’m honestly still trying to make sense of it, but something I realized after stands out to me. I had dealt with depression for years on and off and struggled with a constant feeling of not belonging or having purpose or reason to live. I went in and out of hospitalsContinue reading “From death to life”


Poem I wrote before my suicide attempt…ironic in how it left me looking I wear this mask you see a copy of the old me For you it’s normal, not at all I’ve lost myself after all For fear and longing I keep it on to act like carrying on Perhaps one day you’ll seeContinue reading “Mask”