Hey buddy

If you see me please be reasonable and respectful. Because of the way I look I get certain reactions. Either people point and stare or they treat me like I’m a child. “Hey buddy,” “hey pal,” “hi friend.” I understand it’s an uncomfortable situation talking to someone with a severe facial deformity, especially from aContinue reading “Hey buddy”

Loosing the mask

I’m comtemplating loosing the mask. Letting my “freak-flag” fly lol. For those not knowing what I’m referring to, let me explain. My shotgun suicide attempt left my face pretty messed up. I use the mask to reduce stares, to cover it up so it’s not so noticeable. Is this right, I wonder? Well I doContinue reading “Loosing the mask”

Scarlet letter

A scarlet letter for all to see it’s all that people see of me I try my best to take it off yet fail and fail each time I try This face you see it isn’t me The stares the looks the awkward gaze is hard to take most days I try and act likeContinue reading “Scarlet letter”

Reminisces of an idolater

In reminiscing about my past, trying to make sense of the blatant contractions, I’ve come to realize a hard truth. Let me start at the beginning. I was raised in a new age family. My dad did psychic readings for money. I was indifferent to religion. This changed however when I met J. Her familyContinue reading “Reminisces of an idolater”

Mask

Poem I wrote before my suicide attempt…ironic in how it left me looking I wear this mask you see a copy of the old me For you it’s normal, not at all I’ve lost myself after all For fear and longing I keep it on to act like carrying on Perhaps one day you’ll seeContinue reading “Mask”